This Is No Place To Try And Live My Life.

People say it all the time- I live in the past.
But maybe that's not such a bad thing.

"I don't want you to know where I am,

'cause then you'll see my heart

in the saddest state it's ever been."

How else can we learn from our mistakes, and relive the moments that actually made us happy? Because right now, all I can do is think back to when I didn't have to force that smile on my face. So, my apologies if I'm "stuck in the past."

"Stop right there, that's exactly where I lost it.

See that line? I never should have crossed it.

Stop right there, I never should have said that,

It's the very moment that I wish that I could take back.

I'm sorry for the person I became.

I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.

I'm ready to wish I'd never become that way again,

'cause who I am hates who I've been,

who I am hates who I've been."

But those who ignore the past are doomed to repeat it.
I'm not quite sure how I got to be this way, how or why I hit rock bottom so goddamn hard.
But the fact of the matter is, I did.
And I'm sure as hell not going to let it happen again.

 But I don't know how to change.