Monday, December 13, 2010

Hmmm.

I guess being depressed really does make you care less about things that used to be important to you. Yeah, I'm exhausted, even though it's 10:30 at night. And yes, considering the state of my exhaustion, I should be in bed, asleep. But I also know I won't be able to fall asleep for about an hour, at the least, considering my newly-adopted insomnia (that isn't REALLY new). So yes, I should be working on completing the forty-some flashcards due tomorrow for AP World History. And yet, I'm on Youtube, Facebook, and my blog. I even put my notecards away. And I didn't do my math homework, or study for the math and history tests I have tomorrow. And guess what? My mom said if I didn't get at least B's on both tests, I'm off of Facebook for a week. I most likely won't get B's on either test. You'd think I'd be working my ass off. But you know what? I honestly just don't give a shit. I think everything will work out in the end. And honestly, if it doesn't? It's not like I'm truly obligated to stay here.

They say suicide is a sin.
And my one response to that is simply:

I do not believe in god.

The devil can have me.

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